Messing Up

Do you have times when you do somthing really stupid with somebody, and you hurt a couple people in the process - and all you want is somebody to just pay attenchion to you? Frustrating isnt it? I'm currently in one of these situations right now. I made a mistake, and its effected two people i really care about and i want to help them, but i just cant. and then, on the other hand all i want is somebody to just give me the light of day and pay attention to me. I feel alone. I feel like this mistake I made just cracked the balance of time and i could never fix it. I feel wretched, to the point that im, in a way, hurting myself. I cant handel this kind of thing, and its getting really hard to handel. I just hope this person finds it in himself to firgive me, and that everything will be okay in the end.

Money...Enough Said....

I dont like it. It annoys me. How come everything in this world has to always be surounded by the concept of money? Why does how much money I have have to define the kind of person I am or could be? It'd be really nice if people just didnt focus so much on these trival things and look at the person themselves, but strangely enough I know that is just not how it works...nore ever will work. It has nothing to do with my work ethic either. I'd like to think I have a fairly decent work ethic for somone my age. I just wish I could be held acountable for all of the achviements I have made, and the things I have chosen to change about this money grubbing world, instead of how many individual pennies i earned that are gaining dust in my bank account.